It began in another dream. A Master gave me a golden key. It was an old key what some would call a skeleton key. It hung from a thin leather cord that could be adjusted to sit perfectly over my heart. The cord was tied that way because the instructions where to wear it over my heart.
I put on the key as the Master departed. As soon as it rested over my heart, it began to glow. The glow became brighter until its intensity became too bright to see. The light seemed to swallow me up and when it diminished I was in another place.
It was a huge round room. When I say huge, the scale was difficult to make out, but it was enormous. A gentle mist floated just off the floor making it hard to make out what the floor was like. There was barely enough light to see, but I could make out tiny rectangles evenly spaced on the wall all around the room. I believe I started in the exact middle of the room or I should say that is where the key took me to when it began to glow. In my curious and adventuresome way, I went to see what was on the wall. As I got closer to the wall, I discovered that they were doors. All looked exactly the same and each one had a keyhole.
Go figure, and I just happen to have a key.
As I approached the door to insert the key, a fog like feeling came over my mind and forgetting what I was doing started thinking of all sorts of things I needed to do, places I wanted to go, and people I needed to talk to. After some time, I found that I had wondered away from the door and was back close to the middle of the room. As I came to my senses, I remembered that I was about to open one of the doors and then I lost track of what I was doing and ended back where I was presently. How weird! I though, maybe I wasn’t supposed to go through that door or something. But in trying to recall which door it was, I realized that they all looked exactly the same and that I had no sense of direction. That, in and of its self, was somewhat disconcerting. Even though I was in this huge room, I felt trapped and confined. That encouraged me to once again try to open a door. But as I approached the door, the funny foggy feeling came over me. I lost track several times as my mind wandered, but with extreme determination I made it to the door and inserted the key. It turned and I opened the door.
On the threshold of the door was a sheet of pure white light. I couldn’t see through the white barrier. I stuck my finger into the white sheet of light. Absolutely nothing happened. So, seeing no other way out, I stepped through the doorway and found myself back in the center of the room. I was a little panicked at first but then as my awareness caught up with me, I realized I had a whole set of new memories. An entire lifetime. They were perfect and I could recall every single moment in perfect clarity. For some time, I stood there immersed in all the memories. I pondered over all the significance and lessons I had learned. After what could have been years (time seemed to have no meaning in this place), I noticed the key softly glowing on my chest. As a reminder, I looked up for the door that I went through. Now there was one difference in the room. There was a portion of the wall, where the door probably had been, that was no longer there. Just black space behind it. Well, I thought to myself, might as well try another door. Fighting to keep my thoughts focused on my objective to open another door, I battled through the fogginess and unlocked and went through another random door.
I found myself, what seemed instantly, back in the middle of the room. And as my awareness came to me, I could recall another complete lifetime of memories. Wow! And after pondering over the newest set of experiences, I went for another door. And found myself back in the center of the room. I repeated the cycle of events many, many times. Each time realizing that another portion of the wall had disappeared. But I also realized that something was happening to me. Each time I went through a life, the experience seemed to make me larger, more expanded. The room didn’t seem as big and I noticed that It was becoming brighter and brighter. And then I realized that the room wasn’t growing lighter, I was the source of the light and I was growing in light and radiance. The experiences that brought me knowledge and wisdom filled me. It was more than fantastic. It was exhilarating. Very difficult to put into words how I felt. It was powerful! I also noticed that almost all the wall was gone. I could look out and see where others had rooms and were slowly removing portions of their walls by going through their doors. Some, who had almost all of their walls gone and seemed as brilliant as myself, were looking and perceiving that there were others like themselves out there. Then I realized, I didn’t have a body, and that the others that I was seeing were balls of light. But at the same time, I did have some sort of awareness of myself and I still had my golden key.
(This part of the dream becomes difficult to describe. I sit here recalling portions of the experience, but it seems to be outside of my ability to describe it. Directions seem not to have any meaning and what I saw seems more of what I felt.)
I awoke in my room. I was a little displaced and turned on the light to get my bearings. I lay there thinking about the experience and realized how cool it would be to develop a spiritual exercise about this dream. I reached over and got my journal to write down everything when all of a sudden, I woke up.
This time I was really out of it. I didn’t know where I was and felt scared and lost in the dark. I turned on one of my bed laps and sat on the side of my bed. Everything looked foreign. I even got up and walked around my room, trying to recall where I was and when. I slowly got my bearings back and new I was in my own room safe and sound. I remembered my dream idea of developing a spiritual exercise about the dream. I got my pre-journal notebook out and wrote down some notes about the dream. But I knew then, that this was a dream I wasn’t going to forget easily. In fact, I still recall it perfectly as I type out the dream from my notes.
Wow, I AM SOUL. This dream has changed me. This life is going to be nothing more than walking through a door. I can face the challenges, because what I experienced in that dream was real to me and that is what I have to look forward to someday. I am so ready to have all my walls gone and join with the other lights.
August 27-28, 2008
